This is what happens when life gets too busy...
Yeah... My life has been way too busy, hectic, chaotic, and stressful the past few weeks. I want to apologize to all of my friends out there (Megan, Chris Fox, Kelly, and the Girls, especially) for not being around as much lately. I'm sorry if I've offended anyone for hanging out with my ATO boys vs. my EX.C.E.L. buddies. I never intended to offend anyone. Nor did I mean to give anyone the impression that I was blowing them off, or whatever. So forgive me, please.
I have so many things to do lately, and deadlines to make, and then there's my grades to worry about now, too. I don't know how to handle all of this and it seems that my only stress reliever is to forget all about it and hang out with my boys, just to regret having done so later. I can't figure out what's more important to me right now either. I have so many different people in my life, and can't seem to tend to all of them lately. There's the ATO's, EX.C.E.L., school friends, work friends, church friends... I feel guilty for not keeping in touch with all of them like I used to. (With the exception of the ATO's.) I have spent so much time with the ATO's, that lately I have skipped out on other things that I need to do. But at the same time, I don't want to do those other things. I don't want to worry about school, work, money, a car... I just want to have fun! Childish, I know, but lately it seems that I'm missing out on something when I'm not with the boys. Those guys mean a lot to me, and not just because of Chris, cuz I often hang out with them whether he's there or not. Maybe I'm just looking for a change of pace from EX.C.E.L.. I dunno. Whatever it is, I truly hope that you understand that I NEVER intend to hurt or offend anyone. Maybe none of you thought I was blowing you off anyway. It could just be me. I dunno, but I hope that things are okay with everyone.
Wow, this is turning out to be really long...
Then there's my grades to worry about. English- 76% due to 2 "0" for daily grades; POLS- 53% due to only having taken 1 test; Aerobics- easy A or B depending on how she grades attendance; Astronomy- 76% due to only one test; Lab- 97 or 98%? No biggie; then there's Math- 2 tests... 56% and 54%... ouch... I don't know what to do about it though. I can't study for math, can't concentrate or stay awake in math class, and the homework? Ha! Don't have to turn it in, so I don't do it. That's probably what I should do, though, to get a better understanding of the material, if I knew what I was doing, that is. So I'm screwed. The other classes I can easily bring up those grades. I just need to become a better student...
Okay, enough of this rambling... Just haven't posted in awhile. Sorry for that, too.
Chris and I are doing very well, with the exception of him being sick. Turns out he has mono. That sucks for the both of us, but what can you do? Oh well.
Wish me luck with getting a car! My dad and I went car shopping last night, only to find out that I cannot buy a car with my lack of credit, unless I have a co-signer. But my parents refuse to co-sign because they do not want to be liable for anything. So I have no idea what I am going to do now. I can only pray that God can fix all of my problems. "Are you there God? It's me, Stephanie." (For those of you who don't know, that's from the title of a book by Judy Blume, only instead of my name, it says Margaret.)
I have so many things to do lately, and deadlines to make, and then there's my grades to worry about now, too. I don't know how to handle all of this and it seems that my only stress reliever is to forget all about it and hang out with my boys, just to regret having done so later. I can't figure out what's more important to me right now either. I have so many different people in my life, and can't seem to tend to all of them lately. There's the ATO's, EX.C.E.L., school friends, work friends, church friends... I feel guilty for not keeping in touch with all of them like I used to. (With the exception of the ATO's.) I have spent so much time with the ATO's, that lately I have skipped out on other things that I need to do. But at the same time, I don't want to do those other things. I don't want to worry about school, work, money, a car... I just want to have fun! Childish, I know, but lately it seems that I'm missing out on something when I'm not with the boys. Those guys mean a lot to me, and not just because of Chris, cuz I often hang out with them whether he's there or not. Maybe I'm just looking for a change of pace from EX.C.E.L.. I dunno. Whatever it is, I truly hope that you understand that I NEVER intend to hurt or offend anyone. Maybe none of you thought I was blowing you off anyway. It could just be me. I dunno, but I hope that things are okay with everyone.
Wow, this is turning out to be really long...
Then there's my grades to worry about. English- 76% due to 2 "0" for daily grades; POLS- 53% due to only having taken 1 test; Aerobics- easy A or B depending on how she grades attendance; Astronomy- 76% due to only one test; Lab- 97 or 98%? No biggie; then there's Math- 2 tests... 56% and 54%... ouch... I don't know what to do about it though. I can't study for math, can't concentrate or stay awake in math class, and the homework? Ha! Don't have to turn it in, so I don't do it. That's probably what I should do, though, to get a better understanding of the material, if I knew what I was doing, that is. So I'm screwed. The other classes I can easily bring up those grades. I just need to become a better student...
Okay, enough of this rambling... Just haven't posted in awhile. Sorry for that, too.
Chris and I are doing very well, with the exception of him being sick. Turns out he has mono. That sucks for the both of us, but what can you do? Oh well.
Wish me luck with getting a car! My dad and I went car shopping last night, only to find out that I cannot buy a car with my lack of credit, unless I have a co-signer. But my parents refuse to co-sign because they do not want to be liable for anything. So I have no idea what I am going to do now. I can only pray that God can fix all of my problems. "Are you there God? It's me, Stephanie." (For those of you who don't know, that's from the title of a book by Judy Blume, only instead of my name, it says Margaret.)
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